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| A Final Thought? | |||||||
| This is all a dreadful mistake, of course; it was never meant to be this way; I was supposed to fall off a boat or a ski slope or whatever, anything with more purpose than this mind-numbing war of attrition against an evil obscenity chewing away at my stem cells | |||||||
| The positive side is that one has the privilege of a last word - more than just "whoops!" - and the last word is something you know I've always enjoyed - | |||||||
| .. and, who knows, this could yet be batted into touch for a while longer - though there is an inexorable sensation about the latest onset which is difficult to ignore, and maybe a feeling of impending relief - | |||||||
| "Tired of these things; from these would I be gone; save that to die would leave my love alone." said WS | |||||||
| Only those who have loved as long and completely as Tina and I, could begin to understand the pain she has endured on the roller coaster of the past six years while helping me to delay this exit as long as possible and to complete it with dignity; Along with Lee - who has brought me so much joy over the years - we have cursed the beast, laughed at it, spat at it and only allowed it to intrude on our terms - | |||||||
| Now I am nothing, and feel nothing and, for the moment, leave only pain. But I promise you it will pass and you'll help one another through - | |||||||
| For the rest - its been a wonderful life and I thank you all for helping me to enjoy it. For those I have hurt - it was done unthinkingly and without malice and means little - | |||||||
| Be good to one another and live every day as though it were the last - | |||||||
| Fishley | |||||||